Not Peace but a Sword

On the path of authenticity, the path of transformation, man requires a sword.


Think to when you want to share your truth, but you suppress it and water it down for you might be judged.


Or when you want move with purpose and intensity towards a goal or new habit, but laziness, procrastination or hesitation hold you back.


What about the times you want to express the depth of your heart, but fear holds you back - so you stay in the comfort of the shallow.


You want to stand in your power but societal structure pulls you down so you play it safe and conform.

My first client in my new business, I went in with full trust - full heart. Client yes, but a fellow man walking the path more so.


He came to my home for the meetings and we often went well over the agreed time. I was ok with the missed payments and missed appointments. Tho it was frustrating carving out the time and missing other work, I allowed it - knowing his heart was in the right place.


We nearly went through all of the partnership - him seeing so much growth and being very appreciative of the work - but having only paid 33% of what he owes - has disappeared. Ignoring calls and messages.


Eventually decided I have to cut ties clean - this is a leaking of energy and is taking me away from me serving people who are ready.


I know when I was beginning to have the felt sense that I had to leave my well paid sponsorship job in sport to pursue a career in meditation and mindfulness there was fear, doubt and uncertainty.


What if it don’t work out? What about the money, it’s gonna take years to earn this much again!? What will people say?


These can be valid concerns. But if the heart is saying one thing and the mind saying the other - it’s an inner war that must be engaged in. To pick up the sword...


To cut through these chains, one must pick up the sword and slay the attachments and doubts that keep one in the illusion safety, of familiarity and comfort.


As Christ is saying in this verse":

"Do not think that I came to bring peace on the earth; I did not come to bring peace, but a sword."

(Matthew 10:34)


…it’s the sharp sword of truth that cuts through the lies that we tell ourselves.

It’s not all love and light on the journey, it is but an after affect of walking through the fire, the darkness…and overcoming yourself.


I think Christ’s sword is concisely crafted of:

Conviction.
Courage.
Clarity.


We must cut through the parts of oursevles that no longer serve us, we must cut through the fear that holds us back and we must cut out the people that hold us back.


These things are vital on the path of uncovering the true self.


If not here, where? If not now, when?