It’s been here all along

I really enjoy the Sunday 8am group meditations I facilitate for Mindbloom clients - this time of day, on this day of the week has a certain feel to it…and there is a little less resistance to drop into meditaiton.


I’m noticing this more relaxed balancing of being in my practice, with awareness of the group - it’s an interesting dynamic because too much in my meditation and I lose the group. Too much focus on the group and my guidance loses it’s depth.


And I’ve noticed this permeate into my interactions & conversations in daily life.


I shared this quote with the group with a few reflections, which I’m sharing here with you, it may be something to chew on for you.

While meditating we are simply seeing what the mind has been doing all along. – Allan Lokos

The first time I really sat still to meditate — no distractions, no music — it was to get rid of negative thoughts, self-judgement, self-criticism.


These thoughts were warranted as I was beginning to wake up to who I was and how I’d lived my life, and I hated what I saw. So the meditation was employed as a tool to get rid of these things, so I could be at peace.


The irony is that, it was the exact opposite, instead of the zen and emptiness ‘I was promised’ - I was faced with it all, at a cranked up volume. I began to see and hear just how much noise was running in the background.


Old stories. Loops. Regrets. Violent mental fights that never happened out loud (but looking back I’m sure impacted my energy field and how I was felt by to others).


It was humbling.


And that’s the point.


Meditation won’t fix you - I think this assumption is strong in modern wellbeing. But it will reveal you - and this is why & how the practice has been used for thousands of years in all cultures.


To know thyself.


For most of my life, perhaps you can relate, I’d be reacting to a story I didn’t even write — one that I hadn’t ever questioned in years.


This is why meditation, at least at the beginning is challenging. It brings to light the automatic patterns: the anxiety, the overthinking, the urge to prove, impress, the mistakes, the guilt (fill in your own thing here).


I’ve spoken to many people who say ‘meditation is not for me because my mind is so busy, I prefer to X’


Almost as if meditaiton is the issue, when in reality, it is showing what the mind has been doing all along.


And once you see it - the stories, the loops - over and over again, you can choose something different. And this is why meditation, or simply sitting with yourself and observing, is so powerful in the process of transformation.


Whether you have a meditation practice or not, here’s an invitation:


Sit still with yourself today. No music. No phone. Your breath and your awareness. For 3-5 minutes.


Then ask: what has my mind been doing all along?


You don’t need an answer here, just to notice. No judgement, no criticism - objective noticing.


Arjun.x